Monthly Archives: July 2014
|July 31, 2014||Posted by Holly Marie under Life and Times in our House, Reviews||
I struggle. I get too stressed out. For my lovely readers you all know exactly what fears have set in this past month. The car broke down. Our moving plans got wait-listed. I struggle with my own self-worth daily.
Am I doing everything right?
Am I being the best mom I can be?
Did they eat enough vegetables?
Did they laugh enough today?
Did they learn anything?
How come the house is always in need of a deep cleaning?
Why am I always in gym clothes? I don’t even go to a gym.
These questions scroll through my head a couple of times a day. They are always there, always present, and always judging me. Harshly, I might add. I am my own worst critic.
Now that I am raising two toddlers I am more aware of exactly what kind of role model I want to be. I am always aware of how I act- but most recently I was shaken to my core with what I say…
“I am too fat.”
“I am too big.”
“I can’t wear any of my clothes.”
I am frustrated to my very core with how I look. I hate how I feel at this weight. I am incredibly disheartened that all of my hard work goes unfounded.
Though I may be frustrated, that is not a good enough excuse to explain my behavior. I am appalled that I could possibly instill some self-doubt into my two little ones.
I have a team of professionals helping me get healthy. I just found out I am extremely allergic to gluten and dairy and that my body has been fighting a losing battle.
I have answers. Cutting out gluten and dairy has made me feel infinitely better. I am now eating 1200 more calories a day than usual and have lost inches in a mere seven days.
I may not be where I want to be health wise- but I will be someday. I need to remember that I have two pairs of eyes on me at all times and that I need to stop the negative self-talk.
I am enough. I am exactly who I need to be. I am proud of who I am, where I come from, and of what my body is capable of doing. I am and will always be doing everything that I know to be right for my family. I am enough.
About The Mrs.
The Mrs. will be releasing their debut EP this fall. Although the music may sound like what’s being played on pop radio right now, the lyrics tell a different story. As women in their late thirties/early forties, songs about teenage heartbreak and wild nights clubbing weren’t things they could relate to. They decided to write about their own lives – like the challenge of juggling a career, marriage, motherhood and friendships, while still trying to maintain their own identity. They set out to foster a connection through their music with other women at the same place in their lives.
The Mrs. is comprised of drummer Andra Liemandt, lead vocalists/guitarists Mandy Prater and Jennifer Zavaleta, vocalist/keyboardist Larissa Ness, and bassist Jenny Mason.
I invite you to share your own #imENOUGH selfie! Share it on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and comment below to let me know! I love the message this group is promoting and am hoping that we can use social networking for some good.
|July 30, 2014||Posted by Holly Marie under Life and Times in our House|
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I was provided the opportunity to visit the Arizona Science Center and Lost Egypt exhibit through a campaign with Blended Extended. All opinions are always 100% my own.
|July 22, 2014||Posted by Holly Marie under Reviews||
I am a planner and making sure that the copies that I do need get done ahead of time is pivotal. Seriously, those printers break ALL THE TIME. So I make sure that I am set for a month at a time for my classes. I try to save all the trees I can and post ALL my documents online so that everyone can view them on their laptops. I also have a Blog for my students to post on once a week about a current event on the news that is privately accessed. That printer has my name, I swear. But so far I have had the last laugh!
Supplies can get EXPENSIVE and I am excited to share a fabulous contest that helps teacher’s and students alike!
You simply upload your school supply list HERE. And Great Clips picks daily winners! Winners will get their back-to-school supply list shipped to their front door for free (up to $100 value). Every little bit helps!
#GREATLIST contest entrants receive a $2-off Great Clips coupon with their confirmation email the first time they submit a school supply list.
I LOVE companies that care about education! Check out this Before and After of one classroom makeover.
Click HERE to watch the full video of the classroom makeover and see how Great Clips has already fulfilled two teachers’ lists. You can help other teachers throughout the U.S. and Canada by downloading the Online Check-In app.
Online Check-In app – This service lets you add your name to the waiting list at your local Great Clips salon. It’s not an appointment – what it does is let you add your name to the list before arriving at the salon to help save you time. Help donate to the AdoptAC cause!
With every download, Great Clips will contribute to AdoptAClassroom.org (up to $20,000) to help continue to support teachers and students. Every little bit adds up! A small donation can go a long way to support teachers, their supplies and classrooms. All you have to do is download the App and enter to win your supply list! WIN-WIN.
Many Great Clips salons are offering back-to-school pricing for haircuts! Check out your local salon for details.
About Great Clips – With more than 3,300 salons throughout the United States and Canada, Great Clips is the world’s largest salon brand. Great Clips salons employ nearly 35,000 stylists who receive ongoing training to learn the Great Clips customer service system and advanced technical skills. Great Clips salon owners and corporate office are dedicated to our salon communities with a focus on philanthropic and volunteer activities.
This post is sponsored by Great Clips. As always all thoughts and opinions are 100% my own.
|July 21, 2014||Posted by Holly Marie under Life and Times in our House||
|July 11, 2014||Posted by Holly Marie under Life and Times in our House|
Ever since the birth of Sweet Em I have been working on getting myself back. I came home from the hospital encouraged that I knew what expectations were healthy for my body-especially seeing how long it takes for the softness to dissipate naturally. With The Toddler I was back to my pre-pregnancy weight in six weeks. I was soft and in no way back to my normal-looking self- BUT I fit into all of my clothes. I had to pump with The Toddler because of various latch issues(more on that another day) and felt like a failure-basically still do. So with Em? She latched and I was successfully breastfeeding right from the start.
Breastfeeding helps lose weight right?!?
Not for me.
In fact nothing has worked for me. I am the same weight I was from when I left the hospital with Em eleven months and two days ago.
Please don’t get me wrong. I am not thrilled with this stat nor am I proud of that fact but it is a fact no less. If anything I try to be as transparent as I can on this blog when it comes to me personally. So as embarrassing as it is, that’s my life.
I am a former athlete and know everything I need to do to get back into shape. Truly.
I workout 5-6 days a week and eat 1250-1500 healthy calories to which I track religiously. I drink an insane amount of water each day- INSANE. I have never tracked calories until this stalemate occurred. Around three months postpartum I started to track what I ate. Back then I allowed myself to eat more calories to make sure that I had an adequate milk supply- 1750-2000 calories. I am happy to say that I never had a problem with a lack of milk. I even tried eating more for two weeks with the notion that my body was going through starvation mode with breastfeeding and instead gained ten pounds. TEN.
SO THOROUGHLY FRUSTRATED I trudged on. Everyone I talked to said that it takes longer with the second baby. I agreed but KNEW that it couldn’t be this hard. It was not physically possible to put in all of this work and care and to not get anywhere. I was convinced that I had a thyroid problem. And one of my best friend’s(soon to be Nurse Practitioner agreed-should have listened to you Nikki).
When I offered this diagnosis people scoffed at the idea. Perhaps they thought I wasn’t working out or eating healthy? A doctor actually laughed at me and told me to lay off the pizza. Humiliating doesn’t even begin to describe how I was feeling.
Months pressed on. The workouts continued- the eating healthy continued-AND the water drinking continued. Nothing changed.
It wasn’t until there was a lump the size of my toddler’s fist protruding from my neck that I decided to seek help. I look LOVELY people.
So at ten months postpartum with only the support of my husband I decided to seek medical help.
The specialist immediately agreed that I have hypothyroidism. She brought in back up to the office and started to discuss the very real possibility of surgery to remove the massive lump on my throat. She asked three times if thyroid cancer ran in my family.
As I sat there wracking my brain I told her of all of the cancer’s that do run in our family but that thyroid cancer was not one of them.
She immediately sent me to get an ultrasound on the mass that afternoon and I have the longest list of blood tests to complete on Monday morning.
I collapsed in tears when she told me that no matter what happens that WE will figure it out. That WE will make sure that my body is healthy again.
It was so reassuring to know that I wasn’t crazy. That there is a reason as to why I am still 40 lbs heavier.
I am beyond terrified of my new reality. We are thousands of miles away from family and our support system. Surgery- Cancer-Treatment- Daunting. I am the sole caretaker of the two cutest(biased a bit?) kids. I can’t get sick. I can’t have surgery. I can’t have cancer.
I can’t deal with my new reality.
But it is my reality.
I wrote this days before my appointment and posted it while covered in tears.
I don’t know if I can handle all of this.
An answer is better than not knowing. Even if it’s not the answer I want.