Daily Archives: August 14, 2014

Waiting to Exhale



The past few months have been full of stress. I have stayed up countless nights.  

I cried.
I fell apart.
I kept it hidden.

Shielding my two little ones from the reality of what was going on was essential in my mind.  They were two and nearly one- clearly they were not going to understand why Mom was so upset about health concerns.

I am DONE. Done putting on a brave face and pretending that everything is fine.

WHY?

We are HEALTHY.

HEALTHY. HEALTHY. HEALTHY.

For the past few months cancer has been thrown around too many times.  The what ifs of surgery for both EM and I have plagued my mind and taken away my couple precious hours of sleep.

No more.

Yesterday we went in for Em’s second phase of heart testing.  After extensive tests we found out(same day) that her tendons are growing back normally and that her hole in her heart is closing ever so slowly.

Progress.

I just kept waiting for him to say BUT….

He didn’t.  She doesn’t need surgery and we don’t have to go back in until she is two.

There it is.

We are healthy.  I slept through the night for the first time in six months. Bliss.

This morning we celebrated our health with an hour bike ride, getting messy at the park, puddle splashing in flooded sidewalks, sand turtle digging, and masterpieces made of chalk.  I made a conscious effort to take a step back and think about how lucky we are. 

We have everything we need, everyone is happy, AND we are all healthy!

I can breathe again.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of the messages, emails, and prayers.  Your support of our little family and this little blog means more to me than you will ever know.

Thank you.